A Smooth Heart Is Not Meant For Fast Society

I want to understand myself
To understand my life
To get out of this black hole
And see the light of day

I feel so lost, mostly scared
I don't know what I'm doing
Or what I'm going to do
And what I want to do

Time flies by so quickly
It scares me to death
I feel the clock thinking
I feel it inside my veins

Everything happens so fast
Only memories seems to exist
And I'm still here, losing time
Losing time being lost and still

I want to go somewhere
But I don't know where
I just can't hold on anything
Because it disappears almost instantly

I don't want to spend my life
Wanting and wishing to live
Without actually living it
And dying with sadness and regrets

I don't want to let things go
But it's all already gone
And I can't seem to plan
Anything for my future...

I don't understand life
I need to press pause
Just for a moment,
I want it all to stop

Time flies by so quickly
It's so scary, I'm not living
I'm only remembering the past
While the present disappears

Lost and scared
Can we all stop now
Take a break and just think
And look at the life around us

Slow down for a moment
What is life? Look here and there.
You've been missing out,
Running around all the time

I just want to understand
I just want a real life
Not like society means it
But like my heart feels it