White lies and contradictions

I'm exhaust!
But I say I'm just tired.
All of my hope is lost!
But I'm talking about my future.

I'm depressed.
But I say I'm having a bad day...
I think death.
But I say life...

I want to sleep forever,
Yet I wake up every morning.
I think I'm the weakest!
But I'm still standing.

I feel so lost and isolated,
But I say I have the best friends!
I promised I would never trust again,
But I don't want to be left alone.

I want to be unseen,
But I always stand out.
I hate the world,
But I want to be understood!

I want to be honest,
But I keep on lying.
I say I'm okay,
When really I'm dying.